I am so upset about this, I can't even think straight. My head hurts because as soon as I saw the cover, I burst out in *!+@% and haven't been able to stop ever since. If this turns out to be true, I don't know if I can accept it because it would mean he lied to us all of these years. He told us the rumors were not true, he told us he was not gay and to now here it from the media and not him is just too much. The baby story was tough enough to handle, but I don't think I can deal with this. If he's happy, good for him, but I've always hated being lied to. What really bothers me is that if it turns out to be true, how can I not think twice about all the JP stuff. Once someone lies to me, it's really hard for me to ever trust them again. I've always been able to put up with a lot from people but don't lie to me. I do not tolerate liars. I won't know what to believe anymore.
I have believed in Clay, I have defended him. I have taken so much crap over the years from
co-workers as well as my own family. I don't know how I'm going to deal with this.












